Things I don't

I don't boast.

I don't fight.

I don't smoke.

I don't have a short fuse.

I don't party every weekend.

I don't act stupid for others to enjoy.

I don't follow the crowd.

I don't "hate".

I don't want to be single.

I don't lack patience.

I don't claim a religion, but I am religious.

I don't seek to fit in.

I don't seek to be the center of attention.

I don't need expensive things.

I don't like people who are judgemental.

I don't like people who need fancy things.

I don't like people whom are narrow-minded.

I don't like girls who cake their face.

I don't like girls who lack in curves.

I don't want to be rich.

Thing's I do

I do like girl's who don't need makeup.

I do have a lot of patience.

I do like food. :)

I do like sports.

I do like intelligence.

I do like intellect.

I do like curves.

I do like open-mindedness.

I do want to be comfortable.

I do want to do charity work.

I do want to help save a life.

I love how I always get the computers with no blurring shield on it. ( The library's have them for individual privacy) Not that I would be ashamed of what I wrote here, but I don't like it when people stop and look over your shoulder to read or look at what you're doing. I think it's rather rude. That's also another reason why I don't really blog as much anymore, I always have to use the library internet service to come in contact with anyone I know outside of the physical world. Haha, it's rather sad really.

Since I'm talking about the library, I might as well let a few things be known about it. I find girls that go to libraries attractive. I think it's because that gives me the assumption that they're more intelligent than other girls who don't go. It could also be that it's just because they don't really mind going. I like intelligence and the pride people have in it. My sister is very intelligent, though she may not always show it. She always has her nose in a book, sometimes I refer to it as her being lazy, but in all honesty I'd rather have her reading books than going out on dates all the time and being out of the house too much. Since my dad no longer stays with us, I have to maintain the father figure image. It's something I don't have much problem with. I did do A LOT of baby-sitting growing up. I know how to change diapers and feed and burp babies. Not that they're babies anymore. Actually, they're all quite grown, at least to the point where there's going to be 3 younger sisters on their periods every month A.K.A. HELL. Haha I'm brain drooling my words onto the keyboard right now, escpecially since I haven't written anything logical on here in a long while.

Back to what I really wanted to talk about..

I've had a recent fascination with life. You know where you have one of those sessions where you look up at the stars and wonder if there's anything out there besides an ant pile of "intellectual" human-beings, or us. I tend to have these out of boredom or after reading something interesting or if I'm feeling down about continuing to feel isolated. So yeah there I was looking up at the stars if only for a minute and it got me remembering (remembering because I've had this knowledge seep through me many a time). Life isn't all about being succesful and having all the materialistic wants and needs. Do we ever really let that go though? Deep down I honestly could give a rat's ass about what other people thought of me. As long as I was comfortable with myself I could do what I wanted, as long as I did it in good taste and lead with my heart I would feel alright. Most people, don't think like me. They're closed off to anyone but themselves, they're the narrow-minded sort. That's what causes war and devestation to the populace. Not becuase people need saving or because there aren't people who care. It's the people that don't care.

Example; take the war in the middle east.. What are we really fighting for? What are people dying for? The earth's blood also known as oil. We haven't created a stable regime there. If anything we might've made it worse. Made it worse through fear and destruction. People look at the numbers of soldiers that die in a war, but do they think of civilians or any other number. No, simply because it doesn't effect them personally. Believe me you, I support those people willing to spill blood to keep the stripes on our flag red, but that's really all they are doing. Dying to paint the red on the flag, what a wasted effort in life. To die not for freedoms, like people believe, but to die for individualistic concerns, so that we have oil to create gas to kill the earth so that we in turn may die. It's only when people lose someone to war that they question their beliefs, their government. Why, of course the government forgets about it's veterans. The governement is a machine, not a person with feelings or experience. It only knows power and only needs power.

Think of when the europeans came here, what was the first thing they did? The claimed something that wasn't free to be claimed, theirs. Governement, only seeks power. I'm not saying I believe in a non-governed nation, but people blind themselves from seeing truth. It's sad really that people can live their whole life without seeking meaning, without seeking understanding of why they're here or why they've been given chances to do things other people would. Anyways, enough of my opinionated babbling.

Question of the Day:

If you had a million dollars (in clean money) magically fall into your posession, what would you do? & answer honestly..

My answer: I would honestly, spend some of it on my family. I would buy my mother and father a house, sadly seperate houses (not great big ones, mind you). Clean their bills and debts as well as mine, put money for my sisters to go through college and myself. After that? I would honest to God use that leftover money to help other people. I can say that with conviction, because I believe I could do it. I could give that extra money away without wanting not to. I've always wanted to do something great for the world anyways, that would be my ticket to it. In that selflessness I've understood my whole life that I've recieved those traits for my mother. She is the most selfless person I've known. There were times that she'd give money to the church,whatever she could, even when in reality we had nothing to give. Through that we always found a way to make it each month. I'm not saying God opened up the heavens and gave us good luck. I do believe in Karma though and that's what I think happened.

Welps, my time is almost up. So until I find another day to babble on things I believe in, I'm signing off! Haha

-Jordan :)